Eyes Wide Shut

Look at this! I am person number nine. Whats up with people? Why do they need to be with someone? Well, its the meaning of life. Finding someone we love and leaving our children to carry on our genes is what nature intended for us. Our society makes that fundamental truth seem like a path that is boring and something "everyone does anyway." Although, if you ask anyone who has had kids and is in a good marraige, they are the HAPPIEST people you'll meet. As mundane as that sounds, its what we are here for. Now, with that said, I am not ready for marraige (I can't even spell it) and kids. My logic is that you have to go step by step. First I gotta find someone I can LOVE and TRUST and someone who'll do the SAME for me. Only then I can move forward to the next steps. So after more than 6 months after my last relationship, I sincerely want to be with someone. I want to be with a girl who'll bring me a piece of mind. I want to be with a girl who'll let me live and I'll let her live. A girl who's honest and compassionate. A girl who's absolutely beautiful ... to me, inside and out.

There was only one girl who had a chance at my heart even when it was CLOSED! I can't figure out why that was the case. If you are reading this, I hope it puts a smile on your face. I'll see you soon.

I can't believe I have to leave Oahu soon!

My days have been so packed, I can't believe I have spent 22 days here already!! Yesterday, I made a new friend at dinner and he HOOKED ME UP with three big things. I am about to leave in a few minutes to get scuba diving certified! Diving is such a thrill and its also like meditation. You get to see a different world. This world is not only beautiful, but its based on just instincts. That means I have to also work on instincts. There's no emotions there! This is good for me cause I don't follow my instincts all the time and let things go by. I have one big mistake I made just the night before I went on sabbatical where I didn't follow my instincts. Its not looking good for me. She's off somewhere else and seems to have forgotten about me already :-).

Tomorrow, I am going to go surfing (duh), but I am also going to go to Parkour class. They are going to teach about doing stunts. http://youtube.com/watch?v=jquXcwooV6A

On Saturday, I am going to try out crossfit. Its a gym that focuses on pure power building. Thats what I want!! Soon (than later) I am going to be JACKED!

Lets go of your limits

Yesterday, I jumped off a 25 feet high cliff. Few years ago, I would have never jumped, but within a few minutes of standing next to the edge and admiring the view, I was airborne.

Breaking limits that you have set for yourself is one of the toughest parts of life. Even little ones. I believe that personal satisfaction in life is directly related to your self worth. Your self worth keeps growing as you keep moving your limits. You keep reaching new levels. And the great part is that the more you break your limits, the EASIER is becomes.

Isn't this interesting?

Check out this picture I took while leaving Kauai. There's a car in the way and you can see the streaking headlights. BUT the license plate shows up like it didn't move!!!

Wow, the magic of Kauai.

Going to North Shore of the island tomorrow. Going to check out all the sights and go on a 4 hr kayaking trip on Kahana bay!! I love kayaking!

Monestaries are slow to reply!

I have two weeks left and I can't find monestaries who move fast enough to let me come right away! Does anyone know of a place I can go? I need a place to go!

Here's some news, my right knee is feeling much better cause I only ran twice in the last 3 weeks!! I am going to go on a long run today! About 10 miles around waikiki. I know exactly where to go!



BTW, I definitely plan to continue windsurfing with my roomie once I return to the bay. I also want a boat! A starter boat kinda like this one - http://sfbay.craigslist.org/pen/boa/639378765.html. After I learn, then it'll be time to trade up!

The path to my goals of extreme fitness which'll blow away any competition is not clear

I have now spent 16 days straight of working out hard in the ocean everyday for multiple hours. Its taking its toll... I have a deep cut in my right shin which is still bleeding after one week. My left arms hurts when I lift it up. It wakes me up at night cause of pain when I move around. I hit my head on the windsurfing board and I am having headaches today. I have countless bruises, cuts and scrapes on my arms and legs. I hurt my back on the rafting trip to Napali coast cause the swell was so big that day. It was tossing me around like a twig. I have a slight left ankle sprain. To sum it up, my body is totally beat up.

I am still going surfing today at diamond head :-). Its supposed to be the biggest waves today!!!


I'll tell everyone what I really want and need and desire. What I really need is to lean out!! I need to go on a supremely awesome, healthy diet to help me get super skinny so my six pack has a chance to show! I need to live like a buddist monk with no earthly pleasure to distract me from my goals. Hawaii has a abundance of two things that distract me. Food and Girls! The food is awesome and the girls are awesome... rrr! In San Jose, if a girl is cute, she acts like a goddess. Here a cute girl can be replaced at will. Its like going shopping with so many choices at the dollar store! Its a huge distraction. The food is amazing and I get HUNGRY after getting beat up while working out.

I think I am going to be a buddist monk soon and will have to cut my hawaii trip short but couple of weeks. I am thinking of going to a buddist temple in the middle of nowhere and live the holy life. They eat vegetarian once a day and work and pray all day. There's no ben and jerrys within a 100 mile radius.

I hate to leave hawaii. I'll make a decision by tomorrow morning.

windsurfing is ON

After getting cancelled twice, I finally get to go out to windsurf in Kailua today!!

I went to lanikai beach yesterday near Kailua. There's these two small islands off the beach which look stunningly beautiful. I want to be able to swim there about half a mile out. If not, then I'll rent a kayak and paddle over there!