In the last month, I have move my horizons to a new level. I surfed, kayaked, wind surfed, hiked, ran, jumped, swung, dived, danced, sailed, and was simply blown away. I met so many great people with totally different view points of life. I learnt whats it like to live in paradise. For the first time in my life, I was able to write down my thoughts and be organized. I realized that in life, its about moving forward. Its about breaking barriers. Its also about knowing who you are. That is what gives you the satifaction day after day so you can be content. I learnt that life is a roller coaster and I should get used to it and expect things to be good and then bad. But I should wholly believe that things are going to get better.
I believe that the most important thing in life is time. If I can get time advantage by spending money, I'll do it. Cause I can get the money back, but I can never get the time back.
So what is it that I want now?
I want to finish my physical fitness mania by losing the remaining few pounds.
I want to get the girl of my dreams in my arms.
I want to change things up in my career and go for it all!
Remember, these are goals from my perspective. Every second I lived and gathered experience has made me form these goals. Yours could be totally different or you could not even have any goals. Thats the beauty of each indivdual. This is what I want and as time passes, I'll feel satified as I make progress in each one. A year from now, it could all change. You never know :-).
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Hawaii didn't want me to leave
So on the way to the airport, I realized that I might be late. Well, if I realize I am late, then its WAY late by a normal person's standards. But after a huge amount of hustle, I am in the terminal about 15 minutes before departure. Then by some glorius mistake, I went to the wrong terminal on the other side of the airport. After I realized my mistake, I RAN to the correct terminal only to see the plane taxing off!! Maybe I wanted to make that mistake on purpose. Luckly, the hawaiian airline dudes had another flight to SFO (instead of SJC) leaving in 10 minutes so I had to run AGAIN across the terminal back to the other side. I made the second flight and now I am sitting on cal train going back to san jose. But not before I froze my ass of in 51 degree weather waiting outside for the train for 20 minutes!! Cheez, I forgot "how cold" cold is!! I feel like I have frost bite.
How do you live your day?
I feel privleged to have this month in Hawaii. I was able to do everything I wanted cause I have the resources.
Here's an old quote that everyone has heard - "I am my own worst enemy"
As someone goes through a day, they feel many ups and downs. It leaves people in a mixed state day after day and life doesn't feel as great as it should. We all know that most of us have very "easy" lives. By easy I mean that we aren't fighting for our lives, but instead other factors are out there that affect us with just as much stress as if we were fighting for our lives. The best part is that we are in a situation that we can do something about it. We are in a situation that we can help ourselves. I'll say it again, we have full power over how we feel everyday.
Here's a few things we can do everyday to make our lives better -
Break your negative patterns - patterns are behaviours and emotions that happen over and over cause of a stimulus. Like binge eating due to stress, depression due to lost loves, etc. Patterns are addictive, but breaking them is possible. If you can recognize the pattern, break it. Here's how you do it. As you see the pattern happening, radically change your mental and physical state. Simple. I mean, jump around and yell like a wolf. Just something stupid and funny. Keep doing it. Do it in public also. You'll give others a chuckle.
Keep an ocean away from negative "stuff" - just stay away from people or things that make you feel worse than you already feel. Like a song that brings back bad memories or someone who only critizes you. This is really important.
Eat a whole food diet - Food is a HUGE factor in how you feel everyday. Eating sugary and salty stuff will give you pleasure immediately, but will ultimately make you feel like the dumps. Break the eating pattern and eat whole foods. Whole foods are foods which don't come with nutrition labels. There's lots of text on this, but the general rule is lots of veges, fruits and nuts. Some amount of meat.
If you do these three things daily. You'll see how your life moves a level up.
I have to add one more thing to this post -
How do you motivate yourself to do any of this?
Setup a few goals and write down all the reasons why you want those goals. A list. Think about all the reason why you must achieve the goals and how it'll make your life better. Realize how much you WANT it. Keep the goals in a spot where you can see it everyday. It'll keep you going like the energizer bunny.
Here's an old quote that everyone has heard - "I am my own worst enemy"
As someone goes through a day, they feel many ups and downs. It leaves people in a mixed state day after day and life doesn't feel as great as it should. We all know that most of us have very "easy" lives. By easy I mean that we aren't fighting for our lives, but instead other factors are out there that affect us with just as much stress as if we were fighting for our lives. The best part is that we are in a situation that we can do something about it. We are in a situation that we can help ourselves. I'll say it again, we have full power over how we feel everyday.
Here's a few things we can do everyday to make our lives better -
Break your negative patterns - patterns are behaviours and emotions that happen over and over cause of a stimulus. Like binge eating due to stress, depression due to lost loves, etc. Patterns are addictive, but breaking them is possible. If you can recognize the pattern, break it. Here's how you do it. As you see the pattern happening, radically change your mental and physical state. Simple. I mean, jump around and yell like a wolf. Just something stupid and funny. Keep doing it. Do it in public also. You'll give others a chuckle.
Keep an ocean away from negative "stuff" - just stay away from people or things that make you feel worse than you already feel. Like a song that brings back bad memories or someone who only critizes you. This is really important.
Eat a whole food diet - Food is a HUGE factor in how you feel everyday. Eating sugary and salty stuff will give you pleasure immediately, but will ultimately make you feel like the dumps. Break the eating pattern and eat whole foods. Whole foods are foods which don't come with nutrition labels. There's lots of text on this, but the general rule is lots of veges, fruits and nuts. Some amount of meat.
If you do these three things daily. You'll see how your life moves a level up.
I have to add one more thing to this post -
How do you motivate yourself to do any of this?
Setup a few goals and write down all the reasons why you want those goals. A list. Think about all the reason why you must achieve the goals and how it'll make your life better. Realize how much you WANT it. Keep the goals in a spot where you can see it everyday. It'll keep you going like the energizer bunny.
what has happened and what the future holds
Honestly, terrible things have happened in my life in these months passed.
My girlfriend and I of many years broke up. I really felt as if someone had died and, honestly, I was in mourning for many months. Kept having these images, dreams and flashbacks. Almost drove myself insane. After a while, I realized that she is alive and well and even went on a new year's vacation with some other guy. Helped me to start moving at snail pace.
My job went south cause of politics and random old men who are too old to understand when things change. Last year, I had spent all my heart and soul trying to make things work for my team. Just gave it all I had and my ignorant boss thought we all faltered. Idiot.
My knee was busted in a half marathon in Feb and I was not able to workout for 2 months. This is after I spent January running 7 miles a day. I was hanging onto the only thing I had at that time. My health.
Thats the three things a man has in his life. Love, Career, and Health. All were gone.
Then came Hawaii...
For the first time, I felt like I found someone I could fall in love with again. It was all based on friendship. I didn't even touch her, but my heart was beating again!! First time in a LONG time. Its pretty confusing that I am leaving so I decide not to mess with her life. I am totally alone and totally unattached. Yes, I am a wanderer.
For the first time, I saw the bigger picture in my career. I used to take on my goals like my destiny, but they aren't. They are just numbers. I have a HUGE heart and I can take a fall. My ability is way beyond where I am working now. I need to put myself in a spot where I want to be. Thats my goal when I get back.
For the first time in 2 months. I went all out 30 days of excercise. The trend is on my side now. I am going to go on a super healthy diet to get myself back to the old me.
I have more to write tomorrow. Good night.
My girlfriend and I of many years broke up. I really felt as if someone had died and, honestly, I was in mourning for many months. Kept having these images, dreams and flashbacks. Almost drove myself insane. After a while, I realized that she is alive and well and even went on a new year's vacation with some other guy. Helped me to start moving at snail pace.
My job went south cause of politics and random old men who are too old to understand when things change. Last year, I had spent all my heart and soul trying to make things work for my team. Just gave it all I had and my ignorant boss thought we all faltered. Idiot.
My knee was busted in a half marathon in Feb and I was not able to workout for 2 months. This is after I spent January running 7 miles a day. I was hanging onto the only thing I had at that time. My health.
Thats the three things a man has in his life. Love, Career, and Health. All were gone.
Then came Hawaii...
For the first time, I felt like I found someone I could fall in love with again. It was all based on friendship. I didn't even touch her, but my heart was beating again!! First time in a LONG time. Its pretty confusing that I am leaving so I decide not to mess with her life. I am totally alone and totally unattached. Yes, I am a wanderer.
For the first time, I saw the bigger picture in my career. I used to take on my goals like my destiny, but they aren't. They are just numbers. I have a HUGE heart and I can take a fall. My ability is way beyond where I am working now. I need to put myself in a spot where I want to be. Thats my goal when I get back.
For the first time in 2 months. I went all out 30 days of excercise. The trend is on my side now. I am going to go on a super healthy diet to get myself back to the old me.
I have more to write tomorrow. Good night.
Friday, April 25, 2008
Starbucks Iced Green Tea - Sweetened
My people (that means you), you all have to go to starbucks and try the Iced Green Tea. Tell them sweetened, not stirred. It is the most refreshing drink I have had in a long time. Its is so good and so sweet and so EXCELLENT! I am sipping on it right now. One sec... AHHHHHH, so good.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Eyes Wide Shut
Look at this! I am person number nine. Whats up with people? Why do they need to be with someone? Well, its the meaning of life. Finding someone we love and leaving our children to carry on our genes is what nature intended for us. Our society makes that fundamental truth seem like a path that is boring and something "everyone does anyway." Although, if you ask anyone who has had kids and is in a good marraige, they are the HAPPIEST people you'll meet. As mundane as that sounds, its what we are here for. Now, with that said, I am not ready for marraige (I can't even spell it) and kids. My logic is that you have to go step by step. First I gotta find someone I can LOVE and TRUST and someone who'll do the SAME for me. Only then I can move forward to the next steps. So after more than 6 months after my last relationship, I sincerely want to be with someone. I want to be with a girl who'll bring me a piece of mind. I want to be with a girl who'll let me live and I'll let her live. A girl who's honest and compassionate. A girl who's absolutely beautiful ... to me, inside and out.
There was only one girl who had a chance at my heart even when it was CLOSED! I can't figure out why that was the case. If you are reading this, I hope it puts a smile on your face. I'll see you soon.
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