The path to my goals of extreme fitness which'll blow away any competition is not clear

I have now spent 16 days straight of working out hard in the ocean everyday for multiple hours. Its taking its toll... I have a deep cut in my right shin which is still bleeding after one week. My left arms hurts when I lift it up. It wakes me up at night cause of pain when I move around. I hit my head on the windsurfing board and I am having headaches today. I have countless bruises, cuts and scrapes on my arms and legs. I hurt my back on the rafting trip to Napali coast cause the swell was so big that day. It was tossing me around like a twig. I have a slight left ankle sprain. To sum it up, my body is totally beat up.

I am still going surfing today at diamond head :-). Its supposed to be the biggest waves today!!!


I'll tell everyone what I really want and need and desire. What I really need is to lean out!! I need to go on a supremely awesome, healthy diet to help me get super skinny so my six pack has a chance to show! I need to live like a buddist monk with no earthly pleasure to distract me from my goals. Hawaii has a abundance of two things that distract me. Food and Girls! The food is awesome and the girls are awesome... rrr! In San Jose, if a girl is cute, she acts like a goddess. Here a cute girl can be replaced at will. Its like going shopping with so many choices at the dollar store! Its a huge distraction. The food is amazing and I get HUNGRY after getting beat up while working out.

I think I am going to be a buddist monk soon and will have to cut my hawaii trip short but couple of weeks. I am thinking of going to a buddist temple in the middle of nowhere and live the holy life. They eat vegetarian once a day and work and pray all day. There's no ben and jerrys within a 100 mile radius.

I hate to leave hawaii. I'll make a decision by tomorrow morning.